A month today since the world turned upside down and the emotional rollercoaster began.
I’m thankful, relieved and joyful that you’re still with us, and I’m full of hope for the future :)
Proof to us all that miracles can happen, even though right now it’s easy to lose sight of that.
Just fantastic. There are still bumps in the road, but it’s headed to good places x
Everlong really is one of the best tunes ever made..
On my way out of the tube station a short while ago there was a homeless man sitting on the left side of the flat section halfway up the exit staircase. Usually, everyone exits on the left (near) side, but as he was there people were taking the right staircase instead.
There were four or five people in front of me as I came through the exit barriers and I recognised what was happening exactly at the moment I reached the bottom of the stairs. I’d been following the person in front of me, looking down, and thought it strange that everyone was walking on the right side. The fact I’d followed someone left me exactly in the middle of the staircase with the handrail in front of me and I had to make a decision on which side to walk in an instant.
For whatever reason, I guess following the crowd, I chose to walk up the right side (after a moment’s hesitation) and immediately felt awful. I tried to catch the guy’s eye as I passed, to acknowledge his existence and to give him a look of “hang in there”, but he was looking dispondently to one side..
What would you have done? Would you have felt the same things? Or walked blindly by without a second thought?
I usually try to at least acknowledge beggars’ existence and very occasionally give them money, but I could never see myself going out of my way to talk to them. The topic was still fresh in mind from a conversation the previous night about doing voluntary work (with someone special, clearly of greater moral character) and it fascinates me that people can be so selfless, interested and giving. I wonder what it is about them that makes them so different from me, let alone the masses, and particularly the egocentric.
I could go on at length, but as usual there are other more pressing matters.. :(
Just in one of those mad-at-the-world kind of moods.. Y’know what I’m saying?
Realise I haven’t been very prolific or explanatory of what’s going on, maybe will update this thing soon..
Things have once again become desaturated, however temporarily..