Realisation
Saturday 4th March
Fuck, I’m 23, and have so far accomplished relatively nothing. I’ve just realised that 23 is an age where one should start to make shit happen, and I’m gonna be 24 in a couple weeks.. Granted I consider myself 6 months younger than I am due to injury related layoffs, but I’m still against the clock. Don’t get me wrong – this isn’t an about turn, I’m not about to give up my laid back approach, but it would be nice to feel like some progress is being made. There’s some thinking to be done…
Naah, that’s not true at all. Everything you’ve done, degree and school as well as innumerable experiences counts for a hell of a lot. And to be fair you ain’t gonna get nuthin’ started without them. I do know what you mean though, i think it’s not something you should worry about though, we’ll get there soon enough.
ps. i like the idea the idea of being younger – ‘my birthday is a month earlier this year, there was that week i was ill, the time i was so hungover i slept for 2 days.. – yeah they don’t count’ :)
that was an aspect of personality rarely manifested. i think i’m onto something tho, i have motivation…
…whimper…i feel the same. To quote the wise and fictional character Derek Zoolander, ‘who am i?’. I’m lacking a sense of direction in my life. Is this a side effect of living in Gloucester or does every 23yr old living in 9to5 England feel the same? I need to feel like my life has meaning…it must be time to procreate…
I think it’s all of the above.
The 9 to 5 is like, “Do i really want to be doing this? Uh, no.”
Gloucester is like, “I’m going to shoot myself in the head with a bolt gun.”
And being 23 (or even 24) is like, “Wow I feel pressured to conform, but is that really what I want? Isn’t there so much more that I want to do before settling down? Or should I just bend over and take it from ‘the man’ like what’s expected?” The answer is, no. It’s a shame that we all seem to be questioning our vocation (given the past 4 years), but I can’t imagine doing something I don’t enjoy. It would destroy one’s motivation (as you seem to be experiencing), therefore we’re right to question it…
Probably the single biggest factor is living at home, I guess. I expect the situation to improve once we’re away!
To quote another fictional prophet, Eric Cartman, “follow your dreams. You can reach your goals.”